It's amazing how quickly one can forget what God has spoken so clearly. I've been struggling a lot today with my confidence. This raising support thing is beginning to wear on me. Not entirely, but enough to make me stop and try to redirect myself... repack my bags.
When I met with my youth pastor the other day over lunch to talk about the trip he told me something that I laughed about at the time. He said that I would probably be tested with my faith trying to raise this support. Here we aaaaaaaare!
Here's what I am thinking today:
- I have no power over this situation.
- God has all the control.
- I have no ability to push this any faster.
- It is my human nature that desires that my trip be covered as fast as possible.
- It is very possible that God will provide at the very last minute.
- I only have to maintain my faith.
- Just do what I feel God is leading me to do and believe that He will take care of the rest.
His repeated confirmation to do this trip is undeniable. There is nothing else that I need to know. My doubts are foolish.
Hey my friend - take heart. It took us 8 months to raise support, but we were "quick". It took our other friends well over 2 years to get what they needed. So - settle in for the long haul - and just think of all those prayer partners you are gathering along the way :-)
ReplyDeleteTrevor,I know that this all seems pretty hefty right now, but take heart, it will all work out in the end! God is already shaping you and stretching your faith more than has ever happened before in your life and it will be stretched even further when you get here, but how beautiful this journey will appear once you can look back and see how God has grown you and provided for you every step of the way. I thoroughly enjoy reading your blogs because you put so elegantly in words exactly what each one of us answer the call to missions has gone through! I am praying for you friend and am confident that you will have exactly what you need when you need it! Can't wait to see you here in a month!!!!!
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